i love you.

so much more than you could ever imagine. wow. i don't even know your name and i love you. thank you so so much for giving your baby to my family. you look so much like him, oh that smile. your baby is my best friend. and can't imagine the pain and heartache you went through to hand my precious brother to these wacky white mormons. here i sit. bawling. sobbing. there is no way for me to repay you. i don't know what my life would be like without gabey. who would run out into the driveway yelling "GWACIEEEE!!" as i pulled in everyday? who would hug and kiss me and make me laugh every second of the day. who would be my best friend? did you know? did you even realize that your baby would change my life? that he would make me who i am. thank you a hundred times. God placed that sweet little baby in our family for a reason. oh thank you thank you. i simply cannot put my love and appreciation into words. (this is so embarrassing! i never cry like this...) i wish your family the best of luck and pray that we meet someday. to cry and laugh and love together. to celebrate what our baby has become. i will hug you for hours. what? oh what can i do to repay you. thank you so much gabeys mom.
grace.


the first time i held my gabey babes.