playing house.

my parents have ALWAYS done so much for me. i know i totally take all of their hard work, time and effort for granted. they've been in the Caribbean for two days. two down, seven to go. I love my grandmother, i really really do and it's been so fun to see her because she lives so far away. there is, however, simply no replacement for your very own mommy. gabe is getting really sick of her and is constantly clinging to me. i take him with me wherever i go and spend all my extra time reading and playing trains with him. he still can't grasp the concept that people leave sometimes. he walks around the house looking for mom. Satchel is going wild, nolan misses his mommy and wants me to be her replacement-not granny. Walker destroyed his arm and it took forty five minutes to get his shoulder out of it's sling, a sweatshirt, t-shirt and undershirt off and stick that arm into a waterproof sling, then after the shower to stick some more shirts and and the other sling again... I was the mom over the summer while my mom worked so i had some good practice and now i've got it down. it helps that i can drive now and run them to their billions of destinations. but at the end of the day, after working so hard for them, i still have my homework and laundry to run. i still have my room to clean and things to do. this is exhausting. i'm never having children.